1st March 2024 merging with shivoham

Yesterday night, Waking up at 2 am, got up to have some water. Sat in the living room with eyes closed with apana vayu mudra. For some time. Shiv tandav stotra then shiv manaspuja was playing in the mind automatically. As I reached the 4th shloka of shiv Manas Puja, there was total immersion

I felt that...Everything is Shiva. My mind is Shiva, by body is Shiva, my energy is Shiva, my intellect, roles, memory, my desires are Shiva, my actions are Shiva. I am Shiva worshipping Shiva in Manas Puja. There were no thoughts, only the sound of internal aum. The dual purposes of life, jeevanmukti and sarva loka kalyanam are also Shiva. There is nothing to ask and nothing to get from no one, but Shiva asking, acting, getting and being blissful in the process eternally.

I have heard nirvanashatakam thousand plus times. This was the first time, i came closer to realising it, than just understanding it. Instead of neti neti, meaning i am not this and i am not that, as given in the nirvanashatam, i experienced i am everything, all the netis zeros became infinity.

May you be blessed by lord Shiva's Grace to be one with him, without any barriers of Maya, the mind.

As i went back to sleep, with immersion with Shiva, thoughtless, blissful. Continued.

In the dreams, there is kashi yatra. In the form of adi vishwanath. Parvati is my wife. Ganesha my son and Ashok sundari my daughter.

There is only Advaita now. I am living the fourth shloka of manaspuja now. Nana vishayopbhog rachana ....all the material world is for my worship. Hence enjoying these is also a part of my worship.

Adi vishwanath holds a special place in my heart as it was here that the maha mrityunjay mantra was done in 2019.

Good morning and have a great day ahead.

On 19th March morning. I feel a different state that the brahma chetana is real and prevades everything. There is no i left now. The realisation that there is no existence of self, seperately is slowly seeing in. Existence as a witness, observing the breath, everything, body, thoughts, etc.